Dear Would-be Wife,
If I were a bear lumbering the river, salmon would land in my open mouth. Blood, fresh
water, then I could sleep
A girl comes to me with prickly-pear juice she harvested in the desert, stays the week. She washes clothes in my basement, strips rope from my bed-posts, and uses it for clothing line.
Once I was as good as married. My would-be wife wanted Billy Idol’s White Wedding for our song. My street was cast in ice and the dog’s knees tore.
A year is a skeleton made of twelve bones. My guest and I get a drink at a bar full of dead
plants. I read her At the Fishhouses line by line. Something makes her cry, I can’t be sure.
My guest was a teenage basketball star. Now there’s no cartilage left in either knee.
Little sister, what have you done? When my guest is gone I bring the rope back to bed and wind it tight around my throat.
Eight months ago, same bar, different girl. I read her At the Fishhouses line by line.
Dear Would-be Wife, I wish for you a wound as un-healing as the one in me. If I were
a girl, I would write this letter.
I have seen it over and over, the same sea, the same … I am a bear waiting dumb in the water. Love fishes my mouth with her cock, groans come on. I can’t say anymore, even if I wanted.
October is a thick and hollow bone. There are cracks down the length of it. There is ache
when it rains.
After fucking, Love suggests a movie then laughs at the idea. A dry fish lodges itself in my dumb throat. A movie, I would like that.
When I was wed to be wed, we were without time. We dug a shallow grave, and the years
fell in; lovers falling off a bed, rapt.
nothing pure in this world. A witness to a secret death, I feel how wet I am. I taste myself.
No one knows how long a bear sleeps. Watch me lie down in the darkening den, wait.
Vasilyssa Considers The Dark Path
Everyone knows you can’t
enter a house with no doors
Slow rot between her throat
and heart, it’s not darkness
that scares her. Bones glint
moonlight and bonesorrow
The house is always spinning,
the house wants a song, sing
and it opens the house is not
a woman is not not a woman
(It was easy you know. We sat across from each other for a
long time not watching the TV. She said come closer and I
said no you come closer. In touching we opened a door we
could not close and did not want to. I said sleep in my bed
but I meant tonight not every night still there she was every
night I just kept sinking to the bottom like a stone I just lay
there wet and without thoughts.)
In the beginning, a girl was
very wise and very beautiful.
Good with her hands, she
slept soft cheeked on a horse’s
pulse. She knew nothing
about animals, only gentleness
a cat’s tongue in the milk
lapping. She loved that way too
(I kept calling you. I kept calling you even though I forgot
how telephones work how time how to make sound I kept
calling you I would say I’m nothing I’m a stone I’m covered
in bad milk I saw my father’s blue waterlogged body and I
couldn’t touch now untouchable forever and you would say
oh it’s hot here I’ll come soon I have to go now I can’t talk
too long I have to conduct this very important interview with
these people they’re so old and they could die I would come
but why is that girl in your bed why is she there?)
What built the house also dug
the grave. She sings the song
and loves death’s hands how
they mind their own business.
Rabbit Hole Without Rabbits
No animal was promised me I’m not
like you I don’t
pull up the raw earth and look for answers
If thunder cracks I already heard it
that was her opening against your neck
The smell of salt, wet hand raking
evergreen on fire What was it
you wanted? I know what
electricity does Cover my tracks
with twigs and fur Stay
What do you know about the tall grass?
When have you fallen down and stood up
Gala Mukomolova received her MFA from the Helen Zell Writers’ Program. Her work has been published in the Indiana Review, Drunken Boat, PANK, and others. Monthly, she transforms into an astrologer called Galactic Rabbit. Lots of people believe in her. Selected by Dawn Lundy Martin.
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